Permanent Pain Relief

I just realized I haven't posted anything since Friday. This chemotherapy is definitely getting to my head. The days go by and I barely even realize how much time has passed.

Well, yesterday Daniela and I had a telephone conference regarding my surgery with one of Dr. Cagir's' nursing staff. Ideally, I will be in the hospital for four to seven days, then recovering at home for six weeks. I was very happy to hear that they intend to have me up and walking around the same day or the following day. I thought I would be on my back for quite a while. I asked what "recovery at home" would look like, specifically how long will it be before I am able to sit without pain and the nurse said I shouldn't have any difficulty sitting when I am at home.

I have not been able to sit without relying on pain killers and the aide of a cushion since October. Nor have I been able to walk long distances or stand in place for more than a minute or two without pain since October. With all of that in mind, I am very much looking forward to the surgery. To sit without pain or to be able to walk around the house or the yard and then in the not so distant future around the neighbor hood without pain? That sounds absolutely fantastic.

The freedom to be able to sit, stand or walk as I please? It may seem a bit odd, but that actually sounds pretty exciting to me. To tell you the truth, I can't wait to have that surgery. Yeah, that's very different from what I was saying last year at this time, but I am simply done with all this pain. After eight months of it and everything else that I've been through, I'm ready. Real ready. And in the mean time, I'm hoping the radiation and chemotherapy will have shrunk the tumor - relatively soon - which should also provide me significant pain relief.