Friday, May 22, 2009

The Latest

I totally forgot to post an update from my last doctor's appointment about 2 weeks ago. It was a standard appointment. The doc said my blood work looked good and he saw no cancer markers. Pretty routine.

As far as how I am feeling, this pulmonary embolism isn't as bad as it originally was - I can go for walks as long as I don't move too quickly. I don't get short of breath or dizzy like I used to, but again, I do get very tired. When I visit friends and spend time talking or playing guitar and singing, I come home exhausted. Oddly I tend to feel the majority of the fatigue the following day - I simply have no energy.

I sleep, on average, 11 hours a day. Sometimes 12, sometimes 10. But during the remaining hours that I am awake, I tend to drink a cup of coffee about half way through to keep my energy up. My doctor informed me I could have lung damage as a result of the embolism, but I didn't ask him about it. Right now, I only want to deal with what I know to be true. If it is so, I'll drive off of that bridge when I get to it. I'll deal with whatever comes the best I know how.

I'm happy to say I wrote a song the other day. It has been a long time since I have written a song. It's a lot - to reflect upon these last two years of my life in addition to thoughts about what my friend John is dealing with. The doctors can not treat him. All he has left is time with his loved ones and all the other extraordinary people in his life. Not everyone has the opportunity to say and do what matters most with those dearest, assuming the doctors are correct. It seems a peculiar privilege to have such an insight. But I say seems because I obviously have no idea what it is truly like for him. What I do know is that when I am with him, his spirits are amazing. You are an incredible person, John. God Bless You.

Should my health remain good, I will probably not write frequently other than sharing my monthly doctors updates. Thanks for all you have provided me with your listening.

Love Bert

1 comment:

  1. Bert, it's great that you are getting to this point, where all you have are updates that everything is good!

    Congrats on writing your song.